I think maybe one of the reasons I have this anxiety is because when I was 14/15 and just beginning to date I never really got a chance to be in a relationship that was just nice and healthy. The first one I was in was disastrous and emotionally abusive and it lasted 7 months too long and i’m still dealing with the problems from it.
It’s part of the reason why most of junior year I spent trying to be like a kid. At least now I get to be in relationship that’s nice and healthy for me. I just have to get some help first getting through the rest of the things that still bother me from that first relationship. I’m still very angry about some of the stupid shit that happened.
Remember that time you cheated on me with that guy Zach, didn’t tell me about it and then you did basically the same things to Adam?
I still remember.
And that time you said I could hang out with you and your friends “if I wanted to” You knew I had cuts on my arm and that I was just crying because you had just “dumped” me and then went LOLJK we’re cool.
Yes, i’m still mad about that.